Recently I have been asked on several occasions to submit a bio and self portrait for several photography related events, galleries, and online exhibits. Bio…no problem. Self-portrait??? More difficult - I am always on the wrong side of the lens.
As a holding place in the realm of self portraiture, I created this photograph. I am not happy with it. But first, let’s talk about how I produced it. I have not yet invested in strobes or any other types of lighting systems for photography. I do not have a studio, soft boxes, radio controlled strobes, light stands, and so on. So for this photograph I went to my garage, took two nightstand lights, placed one below and in front of me, and the second above and to my right.
I used my 70-200 f/2.8L at 200mm and a wide open 2.8 aperture (1/4 second) after setting the focus on a cabinet to the right of where I was standing, I used the shutter delay to start the process as I jogged across the garage to get in position.
So what is it that I do not like about the photo? Technically, I am not unhappy given that I was working with a pair of $10 nightstand lights. It is the subject. Aside from the posed, thoughtful and troubled artist look, I must have self-image problems. As I look out into the world, I feel like the 22 year old rugby player I am convinced I have always been. When I look back I see the crowding 50, international environmental and maritime security consultant that I am today. I have several years between the two to reconcile.
The next portrait is of my son Ryan. This is what I expect to see when I look in the mirror or make a self portrait. Oddly, the guy in the first photograph keeps appearing whenever I do so.
I am thankful I am the crowding 50 consultant – that means this evening as we celebrate the conclusion of 2009 and the anticipation of great things to come in 2010, I will be able to afford a nice cigar and a fine, aged, single malt scotch to help contemplate what happened in those lost years.
Have fun, and go make a self portrait.
Craig